Get it?

Do you ever just marvel at your ever changing reality?  Life is not what I thought it would be...and I am not saying this as a bad thing, just a fact.  I rather like my life, for the most part.  People come in and out of your life.  People you thought would be there forever leave, people you thought would be temporary, stay, children change, you figure out who they are is not who you thought they were, or get confirmation that they are actually who you always knew they were.  This is all just random rambling unless you know the ins and outs of my life.  However, I am still just so totally bewildered by our ever changing inner-connectedness.  It's pretty amazing, all this inner-"woven-ness".  We all change, some for the better, some not much, and some alot, but everyone eventually changes.  We all connect like a big dot to dot grid, some lines are erased and others just continue to connect to more dots. Nothing really stays the same, friendships evolve or fade, spouse relationships deepen, trust in others comes and goes, those we respect amaze or dissapoint us. Even our thoughts, opinions, goals, dreams and wants change with age, maturity, realizations, and education.  Nothing is forever, except for Christ's love for us and hopefully our love for Him.  So if that is the one constant, in a world of ever-changing variables, why do we fight the changes?  Because change is uncomfortable, so is personal growth, so is letting go, giving up, and knowing when to fight.  Isn't this all just a lesson in adaptation, maturation, and age?  Aren't we supposed to be learning and maybe taking some very important notes as we go?  How do so many people go through this life and still not "get it"?  Am I "getting it"?  Only time will tell.

Just for me

Sometimes God just drops in your lap something you need to hear:

There is tremendous relief in knowing that His love to me is utterly realistic, based at every point on prior knowledge of the worst about me, so that no discovery can disillusion Him about me, in the way I am so often disillusioned about myself, and quench His determination to bless me. There is, certainly, great cause for humility in the thought that He sees all the twisted things about me that my fellow-men do not see (and I am glad!), and that He sees more corruption in me than that which I see in myself (which, in all conscience, is enough). There is, however, equally great incentive to worship and love God in the thought that, for some unfathomable reason, He wants me as His friend, and desires to be my friend, and has given His Son to die for me in order to realize this purpose.

-James I (J. I.) Packer

'Tis Upon Us

Do you ever feel like you have so much to say you just don't even know where to begin??  That was the month of October for me, packed full of stuff, not really bad, or great, just stuff.  Which is why I had one measley entry here during that month, which was not even something I wrote.  Ugh...  So instead of beginning...on anything I have to say.  I shall just start November anew.  The holidays are once again upon us, and while I am trying to muster some excitement, I am starting to feel they are overrated.  I love to decorate for the holidays, that will probably not change, but it's just one day in November, and one day in December, and then boom, the New Year; which, may I add, will mark one year of blogging for me.  Yippee!
 Ah...Holidays.  Cooking the whole Thanksgiving meal by myself, the stress of finding gifts for kids that have everything, my dwindling Christmas card list, and the rememberance that I have no family to celebrate with.  Oh goody.  Well, to be more positive, I WILL find some good in the upcoming Holidays this year, just not sure where yet.  Most likely in doing for others and focusing on my husband and friends, those things always bring me joy.  Might need a cattle prod, but I WILL get there.  Remind me of this.