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The ordinary thoughts and ramblings of a photographer's wife, business partner, stepmom, crazy dog-mom, and sober lover of this life. Welcome to Sarahdise.
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Uhhh
Uh, gosh. Well, hmm. I doubt anyone even reads this, which is probably good, because I think I started this more for me than anything.
If you are reading this, I dunno. I am in a weird place. Too weird to divulge online. Soooo:
I'd like to kill my Facebook, but can't b/c of the biz page.
I am a happy person, but I have numerous voids.
I like to make nachos.
I wear size 9 shoes.
People with good self esteem get on my nerves.
I am 35 going on 72 going on 14.
It's August, I hate August.
If the Mayans were right, I'd be fine with it.
My least favorite color is purple.
I am angry.
That's all for now. That's ok. It's enough.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
My favorite right now
The ones that seek and find
Only to be let down
Time after time
This one's for the torn down
The experts at the fall
Come on friends get up now
You're not alone at all
And this part was for her
This part was for her
This part was for her
Does she remember?
It comes and goes in waves, i....
This one's for the faithless
The ones that are surprised
They are only where they are now
Regardless of their fight
This one's for believing
If only for it's sake
Come on friends get up now
Love is to be made
And this part was for her
This part was for her
This part was for her
Does she remember?
It comes and goes in waves,
I am only led to wonder why
It comes and goes in waves
I am only led to wonder why
Why I try
This is for the ones who stand
For the ones who try again
For the ones who need a hand
For the ones who think they can
It comes and goes in waves,
I am only led to wonder why
It comes and goes in waves
I am only led to wonder why
Why I try
Greg Laswell, Comes and Goes
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Just Add Water
1. I'm down 64 pounds, wearing a 14 (almost to a 12), feeling like I'm in my 20's again. Life is sweet...even though I'm STILL sugar-free. ;)
2. The photo biz rocks, BUSY! Shot a wedding in Florida in August, flying to Vermont in October for another...lots in between. We are blessed.
3. Friends are cool, treat others as you wish to be treated. Good rule of thumb there and everywhere. Jesus likes this rule.
4. Kids rock, Noah has all A's, Maya; A's and B's, and both are super funny, sweet, and seemingly well-adjusted. Love them, and they love me, all is well at the Coleman's, but shhhhh don't tell. ;) ha. (insider)
5. David is the coolest husband a girl could want, he has lost 74 pounds, looks like a hottie, treats me like a queen, and makes me laugh every day. Marrying this guy is the best thing I have ever done. Alot of the rest of my decisions pretty much sucked.
6. I <3 Frankie and Tatoes, EVERY single day I smile at these girls, a constant and unconditional supply of joy there.
7. We have traveled more in 2011 than any other year in our marriage, I love it, I want to sell our house when the kids leave and move into a little shabby chic bungalow somewhere and travel 8 months outta the year, the other months I'll be floating, fishing, swimming, or boating...happy Sarah = just add water.
8. I have nothing to complain about....a dear friend of mine lost her unborn son today 7 and 1/2 months into her pregnancy. I don't always understand God's plans, but I know He reigns supreme. I love Him and I love that I can pray to Him for comfort and it's always given to me, even if I don't understand I will trust.
9. If you read this, chances are I pretty much love YOU in some capacity. Consider yourself loved, hugged, and appreciated by me today. That's all. :) -Oh, and I LOVE FALL!
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
a Simple Truth
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Two posts in one day? Could it be possible? Get cracked.
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This is MY blog : updates and opinions
We have have only had one Bridezilla so far this year, the rest have been completely sweet and fun. That certain Bridezilla was surprisingly religious...but you would have never known it in the way she treated us, and her bridesmaids who were talking about her while she wasn't around. How sad to let control-freak tendencies ruin your special day. I always look at these types of brides with bewilderment. What a waste. As far as our great clients, we have seen so many magical moments already this year. Vintage seems to really be in, and I LOVE this trend. They DIY touches are beautiful and sweet, and make the day that much more meaningful. I have witnessed some really touching moments and love to think about these couples pulling out their wedding photos on their anniversary and reminiscing. What a cool job we have. Our clients are so wonderful, and the overwhelming majority treat us so kindly as they realize their pictures have been trusted to us. We care as much about their wedding photos as they do. What a blessing to help capture and create something so lasting.
I have lost 40 pounds, and David has lost 60. There's no stopping us now. It feels fantabulous. I'm into clothes I haven't worn in years and have had to buy some new ones. I wore leggings and shorts...IN PUBLIC this last week (not at the same time-ha). What a trip. Not that I looked "awesome" in them yet, but just to wear something that 40 pounds ago, would have been a completely repulsive notion, is pretty rewarding.
On another totally unrelated note I removed a ton of people from my Facebook friends list recently. It was time to purge the negativity, the bigots, the ignorant, and people I just really have nothing in common with, or zero communication with; it was a good move. I got so tired of people's silly copied (and no real thought put into) statuses about our administration, gays, and everything else under the sun, like purple leprechauns bringing pseudo-luck. Some were just gossips, some old clients, and some barely acquaintances that will never even know they are gone. It just all kinda got old, and it was either time for me to boot them, or open my mouth and tell them how uneducated and idiotic they sounded. Sometimes I chose both. If you know me, that's just me. I'm not apologizing for it.
One issue that I get really tired of people getting all bent out of shape about is homosexuality. Here's what I have to say here on MY blog:
1. Christians, if Jesus was here on earth, would he love and associate with homosexuals that believed in Him just like he did other "outcasts/minorities" during his short time on earth? Would he LOVE them? Would he condemn them to hell, even if they claimed Him as their Lord? Really think about this answer, and then look to the NEW Testament for guidance. I think the issue is quite clear. Grace and love and mercy...salvation by way of grace, for every sinner that believes, for we are all sinners, aren't we? Does it matter what our sins are?
If you are saying that homosexuality is a choice and therefore gays are going to hell, then you might as well say that because you "chose" to watch the Hangover 2 with all it's vulgarity and perverseness...then you are going to hell too. It's all the same in Christ's eyes. I don't even know that homosexuality IS a sin. Jesus never addressed it. The jury is still out in my mind, but really it doesn't matter, that isn't the point. What I do know is that we ALL sin. Get over the actual act, look at the person. If you get drunk, curse, lie, gossip, look at someone with lust, have had premarital sex...any and all of the above, then YOU by YOUR standards are condemning yourself to hell if gays are going b/c of their so called "choice". Christians often make fools of themselves by being so sure about issues that aren't that clear. Can you say that you will NEVER watch an R-rated movie again, or curse? I sure can't. I used to be a Christian fool. Now I'm just a Christian. --and by the way, as a side note...for MANY gays it is NOT a choice. Yes, there are some straight people that do choose to date the same sex due to past hurts or experiences, but for MANY MANY (I'd say the majority of) homosexuals they cannot help who they are attracted to, just as we heterosexuals cannot help being attracted to the opposite sex. Get outside yourself for a moment, hypothetically speaking, as a female, what would you do if you were an outcast for being attracted to a man and everyone told you something was wrong with you? Would YOU switch to women? I doubt it. Until you have walked a mile in a gay person's shoes, don't judge, because you don't know.
2. Gays, If you want to be taken seriously by the rest of our conservative portion of society, less shock value in Pride parades, and more professional, intelligent discussion are needed to represent your community of wonderful people. I hate it when you see a stereotypical picture on a news article of the standard gay man and he has a half shirt with short shorts and is groping a partner... This is NOT necessarily an accurate portrayal of all gays. They are normal people that shop at Macy's and Walmart just like the rest of us. Gays and Lesbians are not oversexed perverts looking to convert a straight person, they are just exactly like you and I...but unfortunately our media and Hollywood feeds into the shock value and America eats it up...and there you have it! Conservatives recoil in horror from the "ickiness", Liberals cheer it on...and meanwhile the rest of us moderates, including moderate gays, just sigh and go about our business. Human decency and morality knows no sexual preference. Would I dress like a prostitute?--no. --And we all know to be taken seriously as a female in this society you must have some sense of decorum in our behavior and our attire. Same applies to homosexuals, and everyone else.
Monday, June 13, 2011
Things are good in June
-Me
Life is good, Maya is coming into her own, Noah is a funny adolescent, and David and I continue to get smaller. I feel great, have lots to say, but lots more to do right now than blog! See you soon.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
What it wasn't...
-Bruce Larson
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
STILL
All I can say, is presently I'm in the process of shedding the old baggage, guilt, shame and hurt, STILL. You might think when you get clean, that poof, everything is all better. The reality there, is there are reasons that you used...and hurt yourself. Those reasons do not magically go away. They are there, because your family, your past, your circumstances, do not change. It's you that must change. ...And so, I've changed and continue to change--all for the better. I quit smoking in 2003. I then turned to food...yet another addiction. My romance with food has grown into an all out lurid affair...until I felt and looked awful, and something had to give. I've lost 21.5 pounds as of last Friday. I STILL have lots to go, but I'm doing this. It's time to live my life without the guilt, and the hurt inflicted by myself and others. It's time to enjoy the blessings of our business, and my great husband and kids. I'm not allowing the pain to rule my emotions anymore, and I feel good. I am a very happy person, and really for the most part have been for 15 years. But, the inability to let go of the past, and present personal hurts, was eating my soul--and in turn, I was eating everything in sight. STILL another vice to grapple with taming. So, 15 years of "one-day-at-a-time" has worked and I am clean STILL. Now I am deciding to give up my addiction to shame, and letting others shame me. Shame was the needle, and food was the heroin inside, and I "shot up" way too often. This may not make sense to alot of people, or maybe you are struggling yourself, I don't know. It always seemed others had it all figured out, way ahead of me. The reality is, we all have hurts and family baggage, it's just how you choose to cope. I now know if I cannot find a healthy way to cope, I will do something subconsciously destructive to myself. Knowing this, I am choosing peace and really re-learning a new way to look at food. It's difficult. But after 50+ days of shedding fat, emotions emerge...and I want this weight loss, STILL. You realize why you got fat, why you smoked, why you used...and it hurts, STILL. I always thought I was overweight because I just loved food and was a foodie. I was hiding, afraid to succeed, afraid to not self-soothe with something. I feel better today, than I have in years, maybe ever?
I am married to a wonderful man, STILL.
Jesus loves me, STILL.
I am clean, STILL.
...and I'm going to be a smaller, better version of Sarah...because I actually deserve it. I've come a long way.
{David is taking me to to a Foo Fighters concert in Little Rock, AR for my sobriety birthday, I have so much to celebrate. Can't wait!}
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Anyway
Friday, April 15, 2011
Her Beauty
Beautiful, by Mercy Me
The days will come when you don't have the strength
When all you hear is you're not worth anything
Wondering if you ever could be loved
And if they truly saw your heart they'd see too much
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You are made so much more than all of this
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You are treasured, You are sacred, You are His
You're beautiful
I'm praying that you have the heart to find
Cause you are more than what is hurting you tonight
For all the lies you've held inside so long
And they are nothing in the shadow of the cross
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You are made so much more than all of this
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You are treasured, You are sacred, You are His
You're beautiful
Before you ever took a breath
Long before the world began
Of all the wonders He possessed
There was one more precious
Of all the earth and skys above
You're the one He madly loves
Enough to die
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
In His eyes
You're beautiful
You were meant for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful
You are treasured, You are sacred, You are His
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You're meant for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You are treasured, You are sacred, You are His
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
On My Way~Shedding the Old
Psalm 27:10
Sunday, March 27, 2011
The Wisdom to know the DIfference
-Sharon Janis
How do you define happiness, and how has that changed since your 20's, since your expectations in life didn't meet up with your circumstances? Today I am grateful, happy, blessed, amazed and humbled to be living the life I've been granted. God hand-picked me for this life I'm living. Through prayer, knowing I'm exactly where I'm meant to be for now is very calming. True happiness comes for me when I LIVE the Serenity Prayer and apply it to my life and surrender to it.
God Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
April 25
http://www.familyalienation.org/
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Yummy stuff this week
Monday, March 14, 2011
Track list and album art is here...Cannot wait!
2. Codes And Keys
3. Some Boys
4. Doors Unlocked And Open
5. You Are A Tourist
6. Unobstructed Views
7. Monday Morning
8. Portable Television
9. Underneath The Sycamore
10. St Peter’s Cathedral
11. Stay Young, Go Dancing
Monday, March 7, 2011
oops
I quickly threw together a playlist that I liked for my blog yesterday, and I didn't actually listen to all the songs I added. To my dismay today, I came to my blog and there was a REALLY explicit version of a song on my playlist...oops. Very sorry. My bad, all is fixed now. ;)
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Back to the Future~Great Scott!
~Beware, there is a very small amount of adult content on this link...
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Friday, March 4, 2011
My New Favorite Product
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Commonality by way of grace
slow to anger, abounding in love.
He will not always accuse, nor will he
harbor his anger forever;
He does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our
iniquities. For as high as
the heavens are above the earth,
so great is His love for those who fear Him;
as far as the east is from the west,
so far has He removed our transgressions from us.
As a father has compassion on his children,
so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;
for He knows how we are formed, He
remembers that we are dust.
Psalm 103:8-14
There is nothing that any of these people have in common, except for one thing. Did you figure it out? That one and only thing that bonds us all eternally. Jesus loves all of us, every single last one. The good, the bad, old, young, rich, poor, disabled, famous, infamous, even the evil. Not one of us, regardless of our sin, is loved more than the other. Sometimes it's easy to think that our God loves us more than our enemies, but the truth is, He adores my enemy just as much as He adores me. --Hard to swallow at times. All of our sin is the same in His eyes. So while we judge with law, and righteously so, He continues to love us ALL as His own. That is hard for me to wrap my brain around. He loves the unloveable, the murderers, and adulterers. He loves the unwanted, the weak, the hurting, the addicted, the disabled. ALL of us, gay, straight, happy, sad, Republican, Democrat, Jewish, Muslim, or Christian. He created every last single one of us, and has NEVER left our sides. He hates our sin, but loves us, and His grace paid that price. The next time you are at a crowded place, look around. Jesus loves each and all those people, just as He loves you. Can you believe that? So knowing that he Loves us all more than we can fathom, don't we want to tell others about His love for them? So many people just don't know, or believe. What can I do, what can you do, to make a difference and win people to His love for them? I'm still pondering the answer to that question. I'm prayerful, and hopeful for a clear answer and a place to find it.
I will sing of the LORD's great love forever; with my mouth I will make your faithfulness known through all generations. I will declare that your love stands firm forever, that you established your faithfulness in heaven itself. Psalm 89:1-2
Monday, February 28, 2011
The first quarter
Saturday, February 19, 2011
My Funny Valentine
Valentine's Day came and went this year, and most likely it will be one of the more memorable ones. The kids were with us this time, and so I wanted to do something that we would all enjoy. I found us an overly wholesome flick that romanticized in kiddy terms Romeo and Juliet (which Maya happens to be reading right now in English)...into Gnomeo and Juliet. Ok so this movie sucked, and wasn't funny in the least, and actually was so boring and kiddish, that I got an insane case of the giggles watching Maya get pissy and huffy at how insanely dumb it was. Noah and I sat there dumbfounded just saying to each other, "this is SO bad"....and my Valentine, David, fell asleep. So I laughed until I was sick and looked like a complete lunatic to whoever got the pleasure of sitting behind my Valentine's band of grumps and kooks. We got up and left halfway through the seemingly appropriate V-day movie, and came home and looked for something festive to watch on Netflix; Noah suggested My Bloody Valentine. If we couldn't make the gnomes work, a little scary stuff might be fun. This movie, from 1985 ,was completely inappropriate and we then had to turn it off. After going through several more movies we ended up turning off, we landed upon a Swedish claymation called Pingo, a penguin that grunted his words (stupid yet hilarious--cue eye rolling from Maya, which sent me back into the giggles), and then ended our rockin' Valentine's Day with introducing the children to some old School Rainbow Brite...wow was that a trip...like literally a bad acid flashback. LAME. Very lame.
Here's the deal, though, even though it was completely lame, I had a blast and so did they. We laughed at the calamity of going to see the nerdy gnomes (that Maya had warned us we were going to regret) that was positively terrible and the misfortune of every bad movie ever made on Netflix. The simplicity of just being together and laughing our faces off, trying to find something to entertain us then became entertaining. When we are all together just laughing and acting silly, I remember my mom, and how she loved to act silly with me. I am so grateful for my funny little family, we are total dorks, but we are the coolest dorks ever...lol.
David and I have shared so many great Valentine's Days together. This was our 10th, and I didn't know it, but he did. He gave me 10 roses at the end of the night when we went to bed, all with special events in our lives attached to them with little strips of paper. I had to put them in chronological order, and then gave me the 11th rose to grow on, and make more memories between now and next Valentine's Day. Such a cool guy. God had such a great plan cut out for me with him; Just love it. There's been lots of great Valentine's Days, like the year David dressed up like a knight and brought me flowers and candy to work, or the year he made me an arrangment that included my favorite perfume, or the year he took me to a fancy restuarant (Gilardi's) when we really couldn't afford it and it was quite a treat. This year was special in it's own way with the kiddos. Sometimes trying too hard to make things perfect, actually backfires, what's important is it was still "just perfect". I love my family.
I am a little curious to see if the gnomes offed themselves in the end, though...lol. ;)
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